Sunday, 19 February 2012

I hurt!

I never knew words had the power…
…the power to turn me inside out
The sound of your voice soothes my wounds
It heals my bruises
And makes me forget all you did to me
It brings me to tears
I know it shouldn’t be this way
I know the truth
But still I stay
Hoping you will see it someday
Praying that this hope won’t kill me

You tell me I don’t know the meaning of hurt
Oh yes! I do
I’ve felt it from the very first day this journey began
I feel hurt when you lash me with hurtful words
The tone of your voice is powerful
It carries the strength of an eagle
It claws at my chest and steals my heart away
And I bleed
My red liquid flowing uncontrollably
Drifting far from home
Oh! Such pain

If only you know what you do to me
The power of hurtful words
It’s so unfair cos I feel weak
So weak to even argue when you raise your voice
And talk in that tone
Don’t you hear my heart cry?
Can’t you hear what it says?
It’s crying out to you
Begging you to please STOP!
Stop spitting out those harsh words!
Oh! I fear for my heart

In the midst of all the turmoil
I look into your eyes and see it
What I fell in-love with
It seems so distant but I see it
I step forward too afraid to touch you
But I raise my fingers gently and touch your burning cheeks
Hot…so hot with rage
As my fingers trace your cheek bones
I feel it tense and then relax
And then the heat fades away and your eyes soften
At last! I see the “you” I love

As I raise the other hand and touch your hand
It seems awkward
But still, I lift your hand to feel my heartbeat
And you freeze
The tears in your eyes says it all
You wrap me in your arms in regret
And I know I’ll be fine
As the clouds of fury fade away
And sunshine lights up my room
I smile
And once again I lie to myself, “It will be okay!

By Sylvia Chika
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Twitter: @sylviaoz
© 2012 Sylvia Chika

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