I hurt!

I never knew words had the power…

…the power to turn me inside out

The sound of your voice soothes my wounds

It heals my bruises

And makes me forget all you did to me

It brings me to tears

I know it shouldn’t be this way

I know the truth

But still I stay

Hoping you will see it someday

Praying that this hope won’t kill me

You tell me I don’t know the meaning of hurt

Oh yes! I do

I’ve felt it from the very first day this journey began

I feel hurt when you lash me with hurtful words

The tone of your voice is powerful

It carries the strength of an eagle

It claws at my chest and steals my heart away

And I bleed

My red liquid flowing uncontrollably

Drifting far from home

Oh! Such pain

If only you know what you do to me

The power of hurtful words

It’s so unfair cos I feel weak

So weak to even argue when you raise your voice

And talk in that tone

Don’t you hear my heart cry?

Can’t you hear what it says?

It’s crying out to you

Begging you to please STOP!

Stop spitting out those harsh words!

Oh! I fear for my heart

In the midst of all the turmoil

I look into your eyes and see it

What I fell in-love with

It seems so distant but I see it

I step forward too afraid to touch you

But I raise my fingers gently and touch your burning cheeks

Hot…so hot with rage

As my fingers trace your cheek bones

I feel it tense and then relax

And then the heat fades away and your eyes soften

At last! I see the “you” I love

As I raise the other hand and touch your hand

It seems awkward

But still, I lift your hand to feel my heartbeat

And you freeze

The tears in your eyes says it all

You wrap me in your arms in regret

And I know I’ll be fine

As the clouds of fury fade away

And sunshine lights up my room

I smile

And once again I lie to myself, “It will be okay!”

By Sylvia Chika

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