Not even I can comprehend it!

Even when they think I’m dead

I’m still alive

My breath has seized

But my heart still beats

The love you showed me as a mortal

Can’t be described

Not even I can comprehend it!

When the icy rain pours

And air is still

I feel your warmth

I feel it like a blanket

A shield that’s invisible to all

As crazy as it seems

Not even I can touch it!

As the cold bullets strike my numb chest

And the red liquid pours out from the holes

I still feel your love in my unbruised heart

This feeling is just too beautiful

Cos I feel the chill of death

But I’m still not perturbed

Not even death can comprehend it!

Alas, my eyes close slowly

I begin to fade into the white light

And my thread suddenly snaps

Everything seems cold and quiet

But still my heart beats on

Strange!

But still, not even I can comprehend it!

By Sylvia Chika

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I hurt!

I never knew words had the power…

…the power to turn me inside out

The sound of your voice soothes my wounds

It heals my bruises

And makes me forget all you did to me

It brings me to tears

I know it shouldn’t be this way

I know the truth

But still I stay

Hoping you will see it someday

Praying that this hope won’t kill me

You tell me I don’t know the meaning of hurt

Oh yes! I do

I’ve felt it from the very first day this journey began

I feel hurt when you lash me with hurtful words

The tone of your voice is powerful

It carries the strength of an eagle

It claws at my chest and steals my heart away

And I bleed

My red liquid flowing uncontrollably

Drifting far from home

Oh! Such pain

If only you know what you do to me

The power of hurtful words

It’s so unfair cos I feel weak

So weak to even argue when you raise your voice

And talk in that tone

Don’t you hear my heart cry?

Can’t you hear what it says?

It’s crying out to you

Begging you to please STOP!

Stop spitting out those harsh words!

Oh! I fear for my heart

In the midst of all the turmoil

I look into your eyes and see it

What I fell in-love with

It seems so distant but I see it

I step forward too afraid to touch you

But I raise my fingers gently and touch your burning cheeks

Hot…so hot with rage

As my fingers trace your cheek bones

I feel it tense and then relax

And then the heat fades away and your eyes soften

At last! I see the “you” I love

As I raise the other hand and touch your hand

It seems awkward

But still, I lift your hand to feel my heartbeat

And you freeze

The tears in your eyes says it all

You wrap me in your arms in regret

And I know I’ll be fine

As the clouds of fury fade away

And sunshine lights up my room

I smile

And once again I lie to myself, “It will be okay!”

By Sylvia Chika

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Hope!

  Like a crack of light in darkness

Hope reaches out to the hopeless

It can crush a mountain of doubts

And awaken the youngest of smiles

It lives in the eyes of the destitute

And dwells in the hearts of the childless

Its weak aroma can be perceived in times of war

Its feathery scratch felt by the separated

“Though we war today, I shall live in peace tomorrow!”

A cry of hope!

Even though we all know the truth

The truth which sounds so bitter and distant

We hold our peace
We keep hoping for better days
We ignore the voice that tries to silence our hope
We keep hoping

For even the wise know that “hopelessness” is always louder than “hope” itself

By Sylvia Chika

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© 2012 Sylvia Chika